Monday, March 28, 2011

this is where i am at right now...first i wished that i didn't over analyze all of this..i wish i was more like Troy to let it go and experience life in the moment...but that's tricky..cause i feel like i have one foot in the pool of work & one foot entering the pool of home.  I need to work on NOT creating extra work or stress in my life...i worry that when i don't have work...all of a sudden TK or other stuff will over take me.
Something has changed within me- i used to feel relief & relaxation when only jugging 3 vs 5 things.  i used to be able to breathe...but now i feel stressed really over nothing...i have some school stuff on my to do list, one small self sufficent TK event this weekend, some homeschool stuff and cranky HOA stuff...but really this is nothing compared to juggling ACA & Tower show...but i don't feel the difference...i used to feel the difference in stress level
so when i am not working, i am going to have to try & work on living in the moment.  this is why i am leaving work to be home isn't it...to be in the moment.
i also need to pick up some books on boundaries again...i need to work on NOT letting confrontation take over my free time & mental energy.  letting it go

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