This is a great forum. What i am finding trouble with...is we were not expectating to get a placement right now. And are truly happy and thrilled, just still in shock at times.....
Shocked by the fact that:
~I am now a mother, OVERNIGHT, of a 8 month old 
~This 8 month old we thought was closed to us in AUGUST
~ I stopped dreaming about her back in AUGUST
~I am not such a big fan of my DH'S initial parenting skills and his overly controlling ways (out of no-where)
~Our Infertility journey has ended
~I sometimes forget that our IF journey is over, for instance, i will see a HPT commerical and wince....but then a split second later, i am like, hey you have a baby....
~My entire routine is upside down
~Left work 12 days ago, after receiving call at 2pm on 1/5/06
~Wasn't prepared to leave work
~wasn't prepared to have a 8 month old in my home

~Feeling like DH and I will never have a sex life ever again......


is there anyone else out there going through, or have gone through this?????

agitated.  again. i've been crabby now for 2 weeks. i understand part of it is the weather. this morning my frustration landed on my son :(  all he wanted to do was wake at 630 & eat.  i know a bit early.

i'm really frustrated with him.  everytime i see him un-prioritize something it's like holding a big mirror up to my flaws.  it reminds how irritating my choices must be to the children- when i choose lame ass priorities.  ugh.  how do i shake the crabby & move forward?