last tuesday!  i can do this...i can do this...i'm going to try to not process what is going on ...like it this the last nap time i will do in Ch (at least for a while) just do it. process later!

Tuesday again.  once again i am met with dread & a case of the "not wanna go's".  I don't want to go to work...or i do want to see the adults but not do the work.  I'll admit it.  :)

I am also going to admit, i wish i could just mental checkout and be done...i'm sure there is a part of me that has done that already...and actually it's probably helping me to stay laid back and focus on nurturing vs curriculum.  but still i would love to not think of curriculmn today & just "hang out" with the kids...but i am already calculating the minimum number of projects i need to send home to make it appear that i haven't checked out & am still functioning as their teacher...
but i wish i didn't care about the parents opinion but i do....

such a whirlwind of emotions.  I realized last Wednesday that even though i have 9 days left at work, only 6 of them will be under my curriculum and teaching.
That i only need to have 6 days of worth of lessons/activities.  this was a bit shocking.  I had been feeling like 9 days was a long time. 
i can't decide if it is good that everything is changing...BH is changing directions, we are about to start the big migration of children, so even if i had stayed the room was about to change (phyiscally & group dynamic wise) the 3 big little girls are moving up...they have made parts of the day very enjoyable!  & 3 toddlers are moving in...don't know if or really how i would have handled 3 new littles.
the house is changing- this is a big one & right now we are in the throes of it.
the season is NOT changing, & that's probably helpful...making it not feel like summer is already here & blossoming.
Tv is even changing & although this is minute...as a lay in bed at night, i am reminded with each commercial that june is quickly approaching.

almost there...12 work days after today.  beginning to close up "the room". working on the last bit of documentation & our world board.  Almost...just keep swimming.  The kids workbooks & map are beginning to arrive.  getting excited.