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well i "Siri'ed" myself this note...however i have no idea what it means. i remember noticing the word Michael was mistakenly placed in the message.

i think it was - I feel more productive when i am in touch with reality & not consumed by the internet.

how do i subjectively define productive morning?

is it the time i awake?  the time i get dressed?  

these questions sound silly & like a contemplative waste of time, but i am really struggling with it

i got up this morning at 6am- but not showered & dressed until 8am- does that equal unproductive?

during that time, i took dogs outside, helped carlie, made my bed, ran a load of laundry, answered Mindi's question w resources, took shower, cleaned bath tub. 

bathed casey, spent time with caring & nurturing casey- lathered him with oil, helped him get dressed, spoke gently to him,   

cleaned up kitchen & reloaded 20 dishes into dishwasher.  

hmm

i was feeling like it was productive until i looked at clock & realized i'm eating at 9am,,,like every day. but today i only spent 30 mins online.

something i would like to define,, productivity in morning. or otherwise the whole day- maybe i go back to making a 3-4 accomplishment list for the day

so yesterday was a semi fail, semi okay day for prepare.  specifically the morning w troy.  Just keep trying to take things into perspective & think beyond myself

BUT a good was Target, the kids earned starbucks- okay it was a flat our bribery. :)  Instead of rushing thru the experience & making them bring it home...just so i could sit on the couch with the ipad.....

We sat there at starbucks for about 15 minutes.  just sat & talked.

internet, i think i have been doing better.  This week is a good week filled with time blocks of distraction (art classes, casey pt, helping Lysa) i'm hoping this week will spring board & motivate me next week to NOT pick up the device.  

okay back to here

Okay back to the blog. like everything in the New Year, i return to the "things" or cogs in my life that keep the "Happy & functional wheels" running.  Why i stop writing....why i stop finding creative outlets.  Or is this just cyclic.  does it always happen like this...like a big sigh of relief from the crazy schedules of the holiday. Then i get bored with the down time, UP the ante a bit- reorganize something & decide THIS is the year of real CHANGE.  sigh

here we are in the start of another year, time just keeps flying by.  Although this might not have been a great year for working thru MOW: Purposeful (previously Nurture) 

It was one of the best year's we have had as a family.  my dad sold the family business & as a result- we were able to remodel our kitchen & GO TO DISNEY!!!  Which i never ever thought being a SAHM i would be able to say.  that we went to DISNEY!  oh how i miss it already.

anyways, MOW: i was chatting with Karen & Joy today about MOW.  I shared 2 great articles on one TIME & the other on the struggle of picking a word.

http://myoneword.org/picking-a-word/time/

http://myoneword.org/picking-a-word/mow-is-not-for-wimps/

my original thought was Kindness, as i seem to STILL struggle with the same battles.  Being KIND to myself (working out, eating healthy, NOT playing online) the Kids- patience, loving them, Troy, need to EXUDE kindness ....

yeah 

then i realized a couple days of ago, that Kindness is not the problem or solution.  My mental & heart are the issues- i really need to change those to see the difference.  

so with that, i need to shift in my head & heart & PREPARE.  If i prepare & push my mental BS out of the way, then I be kind to Troy.  I can shove my selfishness down, when i'm tired, i can make an extra effort to say a kind word or action.

I can be kinder to the kids. taking a breath to PREPARE myself for CHAOS & understanding that the chaos will end.  The mess will NOT be that hard to clean up.  The WORLD will not end if their is mess.  it will be okay.  

Prepare means knowing that I am a happier person when i work out.  Preparing my body & emotional state to be the caregiver means working out.