talking through more things

yesterday, as i was thinking about how i am documenting these thoughts...
another persistent thought keeps popping up... will there be a time next year, that i will regret wishing this time away.  will there be moments/times next year, where i am so bored or claustrophobic with just my 2 kids, that i will long for the days of working with a group of young kids. will i miss the constinecy that works provides?  will i miss the productive feeling at the end of the day- while i'm cleaning the classroom for the 100th time??? 


i know i will miss the cuddles & love from children who choose to love me...you know versus your kids who love you well because they are yours...